“I never wanted to be gay. I was scared of what God would think and what all of these people I loved would think about me,” the 35-year-old singer wrote in a letter to his fans that was first published by Religion News Service on Tuesday. “But if this honesty with myself about who I am, and who I was made by God to be, doesn’t constitute as the peace that passes all understanding, then I don’t know what does. It is like this weight I have been carrying my whole life has been lifted from me, and I have never felt such freedom.”
Pearson says he first broke his silence to only a few people, including his wife, before he one day told a stranger, during a car ride for Uber, where he drove to pick up extra money. That stranger turned out to be a writer for an Ohio magazine, 614 Columbus.
“I’m gay, and one of the only people who knows is my wife,” Pearson told writer Travis Hoewischer. He shared the personal letter he wrote to his close friends and family.
“Most of us reach at least one pivotal moment in our lives that better defines who we are. These last several months have been the hardest—but also have ended up being the most freeing months—of my life. To make an extremely long story short, I have come to be able to admit to myself, and to my family, that I am gay.”
Pearson told Hoewischer he felt liberated at the revelation.
“There is a weight that has been lifted, and I have never felt so free. I cannot even believe the joy and lightness I feel from being able to accept myself, and love myself, for who I truly am … but I have also lost some of the closest people in my life. I have felt betrayal by people I loved a lot, and cared so much about. I have had some church people act like the worst people I have ever experienced in my life. I have some people in my life who I have felt a shift in the way they love me, and the way they see me. I want to be loved for who I am, not in spite of who I am. I’m starting over in so many ways. It is freeing, but it’s also starting out lonely.”
Pearson, who is the lead singer of Everyday Sunday, also spoke about how much he loved his wife, and his feelings about coming out to her after 7 and a half years of marriage.
Read more at 614 Columbus.